My matrimonial Advt.

Now that I have seen almost 20 years of my life and most of it without anyone who I could in the true sense call as a friend…..I have been thinking now for a while as to how my spouse oughta be…………
# # # # I am not looking for only a beautiful, slim and an intelligent girl…….They are all clichés. The ones that matter are:


The first prerequisite I expect of my wife --- no it isn’t the ability to understand me, that’s the second---- the first one’s a sense of humour for me and all my nonsense


She must sleep in my lap and allow me into hers. She must run her hand into my hair and fight me with pillows as often as she can.


She must allow me to disturb her, Which I will, ---no matter how busy and serious she is and I am--- , while she goes about our household chores.


She must sit with me shoulder in shoulder when we watch the late night movie together and must oblige to have a midnight walk anytime in the night.


When the curry isn’t nice and I stare into her eyes, she must straight away go and make an omlette for me.


When she is downright tired she must flirt with me to win a cup of tea or a glass of cold water. She must be ready to blow a kiss any time any day and any place. By the way I take kiss only on lips.



She should call me nicknames and how innovative she coins out new ones the better and must be prepared to confront some deadly ones in return. She can call me ‘Tu’ or anything as am not at all particular about those pronouns.


She got every right to beat me up when I annoy her while she watches those dready serials. She can also extract what she wants of me on women’s day. And I am also ready to share her pre-marital crushes and secrets.


On those rare occasions when we might fight and then go on a mourning spree, it can continue for the night. The next morning must again be normal.


I aint promising her a paradise but yes she will always get more of my love than our children.


And finally, she must have a higher life expectancy than me. I may not be able to live without her…..
- - - - - - -> Z a H i D ( Awaiting the special someone.......)

Dont kill ur dreamz.

Itz great to have a dream!!!!!!!!!!!

Its great to press the '!' key on the keyboard for a long time.!!!!!!!!!

Itz great to write a blog!!!!!!!

Itz even great to express!!!!!!!

Itz great just to be surrounded by so many greats!!!!!!

Comin back to Dreamz........ How often do you dream? or rather how often do you remember your dreamz? Science tells us that we all hav dreamz but not all of us do remeber them. Religion tells us that only good dreamz are to be shared and the bad dreamz to be kept with you. Dreamz carry us into a world where the rules of reality do not apply.

I was all by myself in my room. It was night for sure. It crossed midnight. I wasnt sure what i wanted to do. I lay upon my back, my head resting over the pillow,legs straight, my brain thinkin of the usual nonsense, it had always been upto, and my eyes droopy yet open watching the fan revolve. The next moment i was asleep.

### I was on the roof of my paternal grand father's house and all of a sudden i fell from the roof. i was falling and then there was a discrete feelin runnin, a feelin that is experienced by a freely falling body perhaps. A feelin of approach to the ground. A feelin of bouyancy effect. All these runnin and i suddenly awoke. I was still experiencing the fall. it took a few seconds before i came back to normal.

I applied newtons first law here. I continued to be in the same state even after the dream was over till the external stimulus, perhaps my brain, produced the friction effect to have a stop on it. I pondered over this. Would it have been the same feeling had i really fell from such a height? I couldnt get the answer. I presumed yes. So, i had experienced a close to death situation.

People usually tell that you dream of things that you long for or have been thinkin of for quite some time, but my dreamz are contrary. I dream of things which i wasnt associated with anywhere in the near past. Reason? i don know. What i hav deduced is that i put my sub-conscious mind to work on things that i desire and at some point in space and time they come out as dreamzzzzzzzzz.

Dont kill ur dreamz. Dreamz do mean something, though you cant term it as prediction of future. Dreams provide you with fodder to think upon. More often than not my dreamz remain incomplete and i find myself crafting theories to conclude them. Dreams need to be interpreted. Ancestors had means of analysing dreams. we have lost it by concentrating too much on logic and less on creativity.

---------------> Zahid

Is luv a 3 letter word ?

Nice question..... There must be a price for it!!!!!!!!!

For those internet freaks n the sms addict’s luv is sure a 3 letter word. For those perfectionist grammatical pundits who are especially particular over spellings and punctuation it can be nothing but a 4 letter word. For those ones who are not quite literate and hav had bad schooling it can vary depending on god knows what! For tennis, badminton and tt freaks it is a ZERO.

Those who hav understood this itz great. For those whose brain hasn't asked their lips to impart a smile, itz normal too.... they can continue wid the remainder of the blog.

I searched through Google and Oxford dictionary to check out how many letters it indeed had?

The first definition I could find was that love ‘was a pleasure’. P-L-E-A-S-U-R-E was an 8 letter word. Then I checked what pleasure was. Pleasure was an activity that affords enjoyment. I presumed it wrong….love doesn’t afford anything.

The second one I found was ' a strong positive E-M-O-T-I-O-N '. Then love was a 7 letter word. Emotion meant a feeling but love can’t be described as just a feeelin.....it engulfs larger things.

Then I found ‘an O-B-J-E-C-T of warm affection' . It was a 6 letter word. Then I checked what object meant. Object was defined as a visible entity..... Then I presumed that love isn’t a 6 letter word for love isn't visible.

Then I found that love was a 'a beloved H-U-M-A-N '. Then love was a 5 letter word. I looked into human, I found human was just another person like us. Love can be an inanimate thing also. I concluded love aint 5 letter.

Then I found that love was’ L-U-S-T’. Then love would be 4 letter. But then lust can be love but love cant be lust…..vice versa aint true.

Finally I found that love was ‘S-E-X'. Then love would be a 3 letter word. Thinking conventionally love wasn’t sex either.

I couldn’t find any two letter or uni-letter ones.

What then was love? How many letters does it contain?

Google provides the world with answers to every question but it couldn’t give an answer to one of the most elementary questions that the world is after, the world is really crazy to know. The world needs an answer to this question to act accordingly. The world needs an answer so that they don’t hit the bottom when things go wrong. Love needs a global meaning. Letz see how fast can google hit upon a solution.

--------------------------> Z @ [-] ! !)

TTT - The Time Traveller

The time frame i was in always differed a lot from others who were striving hard for each and every thing they wanted in their life... The past and future is always been a myth to me..

A lot of people vary with our opinions amidst our fact being right or wrong.. Its just that., they have some kinda objection for whatever we bring out.. same as we.. we also have the same kinda scientific disease.. its not epidemic.. its cultivated all in ourself.. thats why White blood cells got act as a saviour in the cases where the Red cells try to dominate..

The time traveller was my best friend.. until i realised that i dunt need it.. is it contradicting., how can ya dunt need ya best friend.. well., it was kinda MPD that created and annihilated all within my neurons!! i travelled a lot back in our history and a lot forward in the future., he tuk me where ever i wanted..

One day., it was like., a dampned twilight during those spring evenings.. when suddenly it showered., i wanted to make myself drooped in those un-seasonal rain water.. my soul was even more thirsty., i was kinda stuck my some kinda awe.. i met sumone., right in front of me.. he was, rather it was a kinda impression which i saw in the rain waters that were railing down wards to the earth..

It sed me., that i can do to any place of any time period i wished., i went to my childhood and saw myself so happy and not caring abt any other things.. then again., i went to future to my settled time in which i was relaxed a lot having the sip of my last few days.. i came back to present.. when i cud be happy and relaxed at the beggining., why this fuss and fussed up things all inbetween..

I cud remember the dialogue from a famous film : "we kip one foot in the past., another in the future and piss at the present" ha ha., very funny.. well this friend of mine was so sweet., for the reason it cud do things unimaginable., but it was the one which made me find so miserable of what i am..

I felt., this.. having too much good is also a bad.. i know sumthng that is not very ineterstin for all of ya.. the DEJA VU's everyone have is not really a imagination.. its the minds power to think a lot before it happens..

Time travellin is not possible.. juz forget it.. make things around ya in ya present to be more beautiful which inturn makes u more beautiful.. love ya surroundings and it will be the best that can make ya happy forever..

AIZY

Sweet Child Of Mine !

Where were me before., i started searchin those identity., of which i have lost all the details..

This turn of life., is always unforgettable only when ya reach a time space while it become precious.. For us., the thing we are in is not as much important cos we dont understand its values..
We get to know abt sumthn only when it leaves us., or we move away

I wanted to fly like a bird., with my wings flippin in the wind which has no other obstacles.. But., most of us become like someone who has been hatched and spent the life time inside the shell with both his wings unopened without a chance to.!

I know how much it hurts when u feel depressed., but when u come out of it and have a blast out of nowhere., the pleasures are unimaginable.. U feel gifted.. u feel immortal.. u feel the soul inside ya to be PURE.. IF u come to know that sumthngs gonna leave ya., u try much harder to kip it beside ya., u try not to allow it out of ya grip..

the same things which was lying all un attended., with no feelings involved..!!

our childhood is one secret desires we all wanted to back in.. the time of ours with full innocence flowing out and the ignorance abt the bad parts of life is always sweet.. our hearts beats are nearly visible..

i want to be back in there., not thru any vision or technolgy.. in my actions and sayings.. in my feelings and emotions.. in my words and punctuations.. in my sights and senses... i wanna redeem that back into me.. i know i wud fail., but that sweet child of mine always lives in me!!

AIZY

Thoughtz over an Isobaric process

I wasnt feelin sleepy. I had no other option but to think. I slithered into virtual dreams...... lots of things haunted me. One thing amongst it was my current position in the immediate environment. How useful am i to my immediate environment? what purpose do i serve which others dont? How many people around me need me?

I cudnt find more than two people who need me. For a moment i felt i couldnt live like this. There must be something abt me that lies unique to me. I knew there lies sumthn that contains me and indifferent to everyone but i just couldnt find it. I asked my conscience repeatedly without any use. To evade answers to all these questions i put my thinkin organ on something else sub-consciously.

My thoughts again raced towards her. It was 2 years since i met her and i wanted to endure her. It wasnt any urgency but somethin i couldnt better explain. I loved her . She loved me. But we had different definitions of love. That was'nt the point that seperated us. She knew my definition. I knew hers. But we couldnt intrude upon each others definitions.

The other day i read that when a girl fiddles with her hair when she talks with you she likes you and she is interested in what you are speaking . A parallel statement is that when a man looks at you into the eyes then he is interested. From that day i started noticing people when i talked. while most of the men watched into the eyes, i did not find many women playing with their hair. Over the days i found only one gal playing wid her hair. No regrets though.

I'm now waitin to meet her, to see her into her eyes when she talks, n to see if she runs her hand through her silky soft hair. GUSTO !!!!!

----------------->hazy!!!!!

I've got Q's bt nt A's !

When u r blank., u feel numb and ur output is goin awesome.. and when u r fulfilled with things all makin ya happy., u get stuck and ur give negative output..

this is the kinda phase im feelin for the past one week.. so only cudnt deliver any post.. and just now., i feel i have reached the slump state i.e., the peak state of my depression.. i was around with my friends., all pouring their love and all havin fun in sum or other way.. i was havin the things what ever i wanted to be goin on the course it needs to be.. still., i found a vaccum filled in my heart..

i cudnt bring out what i was facing literally.. i felt like feelin no emotions as such.. i dunno what i needed., and i dint know what i was thinking.. it was as if a blanket of depression has surrounded me and it dint want me out.. i started suffocating inside...

With just two days for my 21st b'day., people all over wishing me., i was in a emotional turmoil., why!? why!?? i cudnt get me a solution.. but actually i dint have a question for which i wanted a solution.. time was passing away., i was kind of infected part., the depression which i had., was easily founded by friends and they felt the same way a little bit.. so for not making things worse., i moved away from them and made myself alone..

i wanted to ask myself sumthn for which i was acting in such a way.. i was searching a lot inside me., my mind aint workin and my heart aint in a position to think about that.. i wanted to break free from this situation and wanted to be normal.. when a door of light opened., it was concreted by 10 doors of darkness.. i felt like., a souless humane..

my friends., my family., my love-life., my college., my status., my diginity., my health., my wealth etc everything was in a safe position., but the thing is that i lost myself.. this translation period was horrifyin.. it was like., a snail bearing a shell in its back..!! but atleast., it was accustomed to it.. but not me.. we all have mood swings., but it wasnt a kinda of that.. it was like., all my moods feelings and emotions were killed off..

i really wanted to be normal., i cudnt pray., i cudnt think., i cudnt feel., i cudnt eat., i cudnt cry., i cudnt live...

for which., am still searchin a answer.. i feel a little light after ligthing up something infront of someone., i wish and hope i will be fine very soon.. its really hard to be in a position where u dunno whats the problem.. i have had enuf..

pls., lemme out.., lemme face the sunlight., lemme feel the breeze., lemme taste the nectar., lemme smell the blossoms.. lemme be me!!

I want the Questions soon!! else., i will be killing me softly..

AIZY

Confused Soul - 2

The day came when she had her 22nd birthday..!

I was thinking what to do to be special, i was kinda cutoff from the world she was in..
Emotionally..,

it was feeling bad.. i tried to break the barrier of simple physics.. i was transportin myself to the area 51, where she lives in.. i tried., i tried., i failed.. but then., why sudnt i feel for her.. why cudnt i think abt that at first..

I had this gut feeling that she would also be missing my presence over there.. even though theres nothing left behind to fill up the spoilers in between me and her., i tried to reduce the gap which started to diminish in its size..

I knew well., what?..? i really dint knw anythng... i travelled in imaginations, those few spilt seconds were really sweet., i turned back to reality to find that the path to the eternal pleasure is not always filled with petals.. we have to cross through the sharp toned thorns..!! i was ready to do that..

But i found sumthng pulling me back., trying to stop me from what am doin.. i cudnt get the real motive from the force which was ceasing me from my feelings..

I know., that once a glass is broken, its impossible to mend.. but still our heart wonders whether it can be re-produced in its own form..

My mind was in virtual war with my heart.. The heart which illusions things doesnt get the vision our mind has.. i started travellin little more philosopical., which really i really dint tend to..

Now, back to basics, i wanted to express my feelings back to her... I dint know whether it will work out.. but i was sure that there would be no repercussions since she was too matured this time from the schooling period.. she has gone through a lot of stuffz which had maked me more core than the mantle..

i could feel the heart beating a little slower with even missin and skippin a one or a couple in between..!! i was rigid that i still love her., i was adamant to reveal my feelings..

But., then i thought., Whats the expectations i have was not defined to myself., i dint know what should i have a reply as.. i dint know what i sud react for a possible three replies., i dint know what can be the reflections.. in simple.. i dint know WHAT I WANT..!!

Now, i was enlightened., why she called me a CONFUSED SOUL..!! i was getting all my answers from a simple word she addressed me with.. i cared for her but still am carin for her asusual.. i have affections, feelings, emotions all towards her still...i love her., but i failed in proving its worth before.. then whats the necessity in playin a spoil sport now..

I was clear. I am clear now.. The only things that was running between my heart and mind was won by my conscience that love can only be felt and never can be forced.. its like the wind which runs thru all over still we cant catch it and hold it in our hand.. we have to leave it to stroll thru this earth to make sure that it does get feeled by our face when goin towards it..

Expectations die, when you really feel for someone.. Am not confused.. but i LOVE her..

World is full of hearts, its just a spark that decides your companions.. its not a inventory..!! its all that instinct.. thats why love is the first basic instinct god created... Love you dear..!! its all cos of ya..!! the world included..!!

AIZY

Shape Of my Heart !

We watch movies., get to mingle with the emotions., few do leave the after-effects on us..

Each and every one in this spherical earth have their time spent vivaciously in a funny mood., it all happens when ya in the company of friends, parents, lovers, even sumtimes in ya classroom.. We have a thinking of how the hell the hour hand travels so fast when accompanied by sumone from opposite sex esp.

All well said., but do we really justify our acts.. do we really show our true feelings.. We hide a lot., just for the sake of not being embarrassed or not to hurt the feelings of others.. we live our life mostly in compromises., sometimes we let off, sometimes we get let off..!

Amazingly, what does the maximal damage of our thinking ability is the compromise or sacrifice we do out of compulsion.. this things never gets out of our mind until and unless we get the work/wish paid back.. so., we don't live up to the happiest moments truthfully.. am i not right..

Love is somethings which can be kept out of this topic.. cos love as i believe is the heap of mis-treatments and mis-decisions.. yet, its sweet.. so.., taking things normally between friends..!! we hardly ever care about our neighbor., nor he does.. so we compromise.. we don't care whether we behave humane to our roommate., colleague., classmate., friend... we believe always that what we do is the satanic verses!!

Same on the other side., but have u ever sat alone and gave a thinking about the reasons behind any action that u have done on that day., can u justify anything to ya heart.. mind gets u a lot of versatile solutions..!! but what matters is., whats there in living high when ya true identity is lying so low..

Try this sometime., if you are strong hearted.. be in a room, all alone, lights off, close ya eyes, think of ya best friend, and think what you can do to make him happy.. you will get lots of ideas., you would be flourished with memories, the good part of him/her.. Now., switch on the light and think about the same with ya eyes open.. If ya can feel the difference., you are a human, a normal soul..!! If not., you are SACRED..

We never ever give the same respect for our aides., not even a part of what we give for the flares of opposite sex.. We don't do it intentionally., still we do it.. thats what matters.. if you and him , starts believing in ya true bond., i can assure that doesn't need any compromises...

Friendship is something that can be felt.. its not like love.. u can feel the warmth directly., there will be no expectations, there will be no distinctions.. Friends to help us and tend to help us when we are in trouble., thats a instinct.. but true bonds., really makes ya feel for him/her..

We should respect each and everyone around ya with out any respect to anything.. I'm sure that will make ya world blossomed with blessings and am righteous that pure smiles from anyones heart will make ya day the best...

Shape of my heart is not square., but who cares about the shape.. its made of flesh., that pumps blood.. this flesh is the composition of our friends and family.. the blood is the feelings/actions.. we should be ready to accept the bad blood and be working hard to pump out the pure ones.. and am sure., days passing., you will never be compromising anymore..!!

Love you all my friends., This is dedicated to you all..


Aizy

A Beautiful Mind !

Thanx buddies For ur sweet COmments.. It makes Me to write more!!

I was loosing my mind over two beautiful movies which i saw yesterday..!!

First i should be saying abt the day., after being so busy for a fortnight., when go into idle mood., silence haunts you., words get stuck., wind seems to be too dry., ur heart beats a little slower..
so i decided to catch up with sumthng that makes my brain from becoming out-of-order..

I got these two beautiful movies... "Seducing Mr. Perfect" & "The Professional".. Both being classy in thier own grounds..

The first one was a korean-english movie with a cute looking pair trying to search for the love they have hidden in them, the second one being a hitman's story with whom a 12 yr old gal fall in love.. I cant and dont want to spell the names of the actors in that korean movie.. The Professional had a awesome acting personnels like JEAN RENO, NATALIE PORTMAN, GARY OLDMAN..

I was wondering why natalie is depicting a bitchy kinda roles in most of her movies like closer.. but the thing about her is that she justifies her roles very well such that we dunt question a single moment.. Jean Reno is one class actor, whos been my favourite actor for long time.. He portrayed many cameo's and supporting characters.. i liked his roles in Da vinci code, Godzilla, M.I., etc..

Ok., Forget the roles and names.. Lemme dive into the emotions and expressions.. I can remember a dialogue from the crap movie called WILDTHINGS - 3;

"You won't remember, But you can never Forget"

Love is what i talk abt most of the time., cos it reveals itself in many many forms and preludes in each and every human being.. the characters coming alive in movies show that LOVE can be easily between a boss nd her secretary, between a guy of 40's and a gal in her teens..

Only things that waries off from the normality which proves the ample time space given to each and every single hearts of this vast universe is the fact that more than blossoms, the derailing happens most..

When people fall in love, they turn blind.. Its better that they stay like that., cos.. this world also proves a lot to the matter that suspicion and surrealism is something that is experienced by me, u, him and her!!

The true emotions when mixed with the little white lies always proved worthy.. when someone gets dumped, he/she feels deserted., thinks that lifes at par-end..!! my point of view suggests that each and every moment of life has its optimistic and pessimistic view.. Just that we got to find it in the way of the ur conscience!!

I too felt the same stuff., but got to know that., being optimistic shows that theres lots others in this world to love u., being pessimistic shows that theres one less in this world to love ya.. ha ha.. thats the way.. U get to know that taking what ever position u want to after this debacle will enlighten ya into a path that always shows prosperity..

Once., mahatma gandhi said., "if u can hit a bee with a stone, and if ya miss ya a elephant with the same stone., missing the elephant is more pleasurable.. cos failures are to be tasted by everyone., they provide the much more strong platform for ya next launch..

I try my best to bring out my left side of my brain.. one sms joke says "theres nothing left in ya right side, and theres nothing right on ya left side"..

A mind a.k.a ya brain is the most precious possession u can have.. It is the cpu of ya.. it controls ya.. keep it fresh., cos a beautiful mind never makes a collapse out of ya!!

will be back..

Aizy

Confused Soul !

Yes, Thats wat a earthly creature called me by.!

Well, Yesterday was on a kinda hangover.. Today also, i dint amuse myself to write on a fuzzy logic topic. So i decided to describe a member of a human race of whose personal details wont be revealed.. The thing is just to recapulate the characteristics and the behavorial anatomy of this alien for the martians..

I travel back to those greeny times, when everythng except indian cricket was almost same.. school times, the memory revived..

I could rave myself to the first instant where i met this so-called creature whom belongs to the fairer sex by mistake.. hmm, rather fortunate.. I was bein told abt her by my friends as she was prevailing as the worthy championship between the hungry eyes of the vulturous guys!!

The moment i met, i was kinda hit by the aura which was missin from the background.. I was on a warfare.. The smiles and eyes are the weapons and other statistics were really out of bounds.. She talked with so ease., the flow and presence was gifted.. it was complemented by the words and looks..

Travelling little further ahead, both became so close as friends.., she used to be the commander in trade.. with so much brains and beauty., there comes a mis-balance between the both.. but she was like, sliding thru it very well.. cut to the specs. i started to find her more amusing not just becos of her attractive zero-count, but also it was her power to make people stick to her..

I fell in love, it was the perfect the recipe for a romantic movie.. as simple as that., but whats there in life if tragedy dint hit u.. tables turned.. i went on a loose trial which made me distanced from her.. she forgotten the simple basics to hold me back., and i was even bad that i lost my base..

Schooling ended., life was moving very fast in their own lanes, people say, that it is very difficult to forget the ones whom u had it truely in ya heart,. i deny it.. it is not very difficult to forget.. but., the simple fact i got by this 4 year gap was this : "YOU CAN FORGET TO THINK ; but YOU CAN NEVER THINK TO FORGET"

When i met her back thru this vast world of www., we were on a choked position.., she was as clear as water as usual., me thru 2 relationships already found myself wrecked infront of her.. words got stuck.. wanted to apologize.. but the guilt was started to replaced by false-ego.. i was not in a position to redeem myself.. time was goin..

She was too sweet to me., i found her more apropriate.. more simple this time.. Now we dont have the option of gettin back., the single door left out was the pathway of smooth friendship., which can only direct u to happiness and no fuss..

I confessed, i conferred, i condemned, i confused, i consoled, i conjucated, i complemented, i controlled, i cared, i complimented, i couched, i crawled, i crippled, infront of her..

I was showing my true feelings, i showed my true love.. she's more beautiful when she accepted it with a smile saying that she is fine with me..

All these years for which she hated me was forgotten, forgiven, foreseen.. I was on a blue mountain, playin in the water of blue spring tryin to catch the fumes of a blue cloud.!!

I was back.. I played softly, i found my shape of heart..

She still says me a "CONFUSED SOUL".. that is her..

She knows well now that
i LOVE her..

Aizy

Let Darkness Fall..!!

iT iS betteR tO bE hateD foR whaT yoU arE thaN tO bE loveD foR whaT yoU arE noT ...

One of my friend's reply for his relationship status!!


Today i had this sleep at a rather odd hours at around 3pm.. i was on progress with a nightmarish journey with a demon.. sudden surge of blood in my brain woke me up., i was on primal fear, my forehead covered with the essence of sweat.. i started my first view in a perplexed manner, searching for light amidst the darkness which filled my room..

At the moment of the eternal fear, we all search for our loved ones, we cherish the moments in which the negative thoughts were erased to nil which brings the sweet nectar of happiness.. our friends, family, heartfelt crushes...!!

but.. we suddenly get to know, that myth doesnt exist when we are in kinda situation which has a dead end and a no-return path.. that time is the perfect point one gets to know abt the real U..
ya..

i mean it..

when u stand nude, u get the importance of clothes, when u stay hungry, u get to know whats food for.. the eternal truth of what all greats like galileo, copernicus tried to prove is the fact that, nothing in this world is stale.. everythng has a change.. infact change is the only thing that doesnt change...

you believe in you at the point of death, u mull the defeats, u curse the satan of ya very own heart nd soul.. brain stops thinking..

well., relationships are what am sobbering now...!! people fall for it blindfolded.. unaware of the depth it has..!! the time he reaches the flat ground, the guy/gal loses his identity.. thats the first point what i was telling.. u woke up in primal fear.. unknown to do what u want to do..!!

am totally sided to the pure love.. but whats called pure.. even the gold has to be added with impurities to make it usable.. pure love., or near about pure love is something added to endangered spiecies..

i hate this world for this single fact that it kills the pure form..!!

i love this world for this single fact that it does kill the pure form..!!

Let the darkness fall...!!!

Aizy

End Of Days!!!

Beach life, Strafing on the shores, with the blue water gently kissing ya legs, you feel elated, mind excited... Come on.. Cut to Reality.. The noise pollution, air sookened with dust, water filled with impurities, materialised thinkings, sorroful yesterdays, painful loves, forgetable mornings..

Some day, Some day, Some life;
Why am i fixed at the vex of superlatives,
Life beckons; mind reckons;
I recall myself to a total apocalypse.,
The sudden burst of the small petals
into a full blossomed flower..,
A kid is always a kid, once it starts
thinking, it looses the blessed freshness, originality!
Its well said that mind is the devil's workshop,
Well said;

But why am i fixed at the vex of superlatives!

Everyone wants to be someone whom they aim for, sum kinda personlaity that affected them, rather, impressed them.. In this tiny world, everyone wanted to be unique.. but what we forget is.. We are all think alike, that we are unique.. so where is the plot missing..!??

Ask the same questions to u, ur friends, even to ya enemies (make them friends soon).. the answer will be simple.. some kinda numb n dumb replies which will have no relation with the context of topic..!!

Am too abstract, kinda coded in my thoughts.. my friends said..
Ya i am..

U have to decipher my words, u will feeel easy if u know me well.. if u wud have understood me well more!!.. but what abt those who dunno me.. the solution again is simple..!!

what my idea of this swarm full of sluggy ideas.. but slugginess is the easiest way to slip thru the hard path filled with stones!!

One things what my topic today suggests is that.. the end of sumthng is always a beginning.. Be yourself.. Dunt get urself in the line up of Xerox copies..!!

Rise your ideas, End is always ended with the letter D.. D means destory, Destiny, Destination.. but what if its a Direction to the path of Glory..

Think Once MOre!!

Aizy

What for Greek Created Alpha??

Was Wanderin around in the Jungle of Hocus-Pocus..!! The Sunlight dimming down makin me feel mild.. sudden surge of blood in my face.. veins are blocking my thinking.. i was about to faint.. Aint it looking like a better start for a dramatic novel..

Was gonna get sumthng which really feeds a lots of herds.. humans.. hecks.. topic is drifting towards the verge of point of no return..

well, in this world of quick returns there are lots of situations in which u feel lost.. but there will be a small streak of light which may be bcos of the small swarm bee.. the light which fills ya mind when ya feel blank is sumthn very precious.. sumthng not everyone is gifted with.. once u get ur way out of the ditch, u will be pure.. ur mind will be sacred.. ur soul will be blessed.. u will never commit a dumb act...

but., why then, people get stuck with materialism.. thats what alpha beta.. fuck it.. there are just two kinds of people.. the words of race, religion, region, herd everythng gets into the final wire of the two kinds of human im prescribing..

sumthngs..always proved is re-proved in theorems..!! theorems which makes the genrealised stuffs into a fact.. we dunt accept the facts.. but do believe in thoerems!! reality is that.. well, lemme come back...

two kinds of people.. as simple as that.. one who talks/say/write , another one who reads/follows/listen.. am i not giving a simple solution to the work piece of leonardo's da vince code!!.. see.. the thing is that.. it all depends on ya head!!..

now.. whats the connection between my topic and content.. lemme get it straight... since the greeks named it alpha, we get that alphabet.. A for apple is the first word anyone learns!!

World is blooming with love, lets not disrupt it.. LOve people., Love ur place..

Let Love be the language everyone talk, let relstionships be broadend, let people be same., let world be in peace!! Hail the Greeks..!!

Silence after the Storm

It was a Hard Week, was workin a lot, less foodin, less dozing.. well, the speciality is that i got to work with a few gifted people who are really gold at their heart, pure in their thinking, sweet in their words, cute in their looks and last but not least they are friendly.

I Used to wonder, why the fairer half is always a distant view. we comment, feel, fantasize, think, talk and even droop ourself with their actions and about their visuals. we never care to have a talk with them in such a way that we can understand what they are..

When time was flyin like hell, the sweet things really do matter in such a style that they get impressioned in ya conscience.. cut to the reality, when just a handpick days remaining in this wonderful world of living together in college hostel, the spat between two bunch of my friends made me upset.

They have their own views for what they call it as a decision making.. they hit eachother and have infinte looped arguments.. so, whats the inference of two things.. two entirely different things happening...

Gettin to know thw reality is what it matters, our own harrypotter world goes always sweet for us., life is not just abt living through, its striving hard to keep up our emotions intact in such a way we and our companions and even our opposite siders have some kinda respect for each one of us.. Taking the things differntly doesnt matter, but takin us in differnet stuff really do matter..

The world of happiness is acting on its own, the Satan of Sorrowness do try to attack it and there by trying to collapse the systematic things thats goin on.. But, u know what., heroes always win at the last until and unless its a movie.

I'm thankful to the four angels whom i met this week for making me out of something. i do respect all of my surrounding habitants and i dunt feel shame in getting down for sumone who is really worth for it.. Will be back guys!!

What What What..

had a good start.. well, people say that they expect a lot better from me.. am tryin/doing my best..

ok, coming to what i meant by the topic. WWW., the one and only survivor of the last century.. humanity has taken so many diversions from what its actually meant for.. the needs and deeds are different now.. technology is rising like hell.. they seems to overrule the mind and soul.

why., why this difference in sucha short period.. a generation change happens normally after 25 years.. but, i can feel a gr8 differnece in all prospective between my 10th and 20th age.. even BOND has changed his style from hot gals and too much hectic gadgets to simple phone and sexy sleek eva green..

when i started it was 1pm, and now its 8pm.. i had a gap.. so loss of continuity is
forgiven..

well, love and lust are too simple things minced together.. they are chewed in between the two worlds of guys and gals, and the result part is the worst.. what remains is the new cruel form of ditchin and dumping.. i have a friend who was dumped by his GF.. EX GF to be precise, well, the last traces she left in him was the sad face and the broken heart..

when tech is meetin emotions the unprecedented things are really amazing, the mobile phone is the best carrier of love than anyother thing this world has seen.. the fact that the online dating sites and community sites booming is the just the fact that the frsutration level is increased and the proportion is coming a near about 50 - 50, whn the old stats show that guys are the real buggers..

internet is the only culprit the time seems to travel faster. its kinda a future time
machine., i have seen and been the one who are addicted.. and i hope emotions relationships feelings love and what even lust and romance are being dried in that platform..

what i wud suggest is that let me start off fresh sumother time.. got hell loadz of worki promise and assure that, my random shit will be gud for ya eyes.. will cum more colorful even in my words.. bubye buddies

Once Upon Time there was a Story teller..!!

i know., things which make u feel good never stays with ya.

yesterday i was shittin the time asusual, sumthn unusual happened.. rather its usual.. i fell for a gal who used to be my best gal friend.. i did have the guts to say her even though its fresh start. but the thing i am happy abt this that "am not a rock without feelings"

now.. sumone comes and tells me tht am cheatin myself that am not in love., just feel the feelings, hear the sound of my heartbeats.. does it say the reality.. no, no, no, fuck it.

i was like, why sud the world which is so much of mysteries which never gives u proper answer when u need one.. but then i found out that its our need and its us who sud find and search the necessary things we need.. and i also found that, life sucks.. we have to reincarnate, i would rather say we need to search the real us inside the real us.. what the hell am i sayin..

i know that this bloggin doesnt happen with me, but see.. i could write 10 lines with such a flow.. then i realised that what i was sed.. i was prescribed this by a gal, who stole my heart. sumtimes true feelings makes ripples.. the sound which cant be heard explicitly.. thats the purity life renders everyone..

one thing to be noted.. am not gonna shit this place with what the hell i did today.. its all for the screwed up stuff im gettin mixed and minced in my brain.. thats why i kept such a topic "a for alpha" aint it sweet.. if not, bunk it. have started sumthn new.. wish me.. am all urs..